Tagged with self-worth

My Lack of World-Changing Extracurriculars

My Lack of World-Changing Extracurriculars

A deliciously chubby six-month-old is swatting a plush green bird at my feet. His three-year-old brother is sleepily sprawled on the couch, watching Curious George. It’s a rare moment of still in our tireless household. The sun set hours ago, so all the lights are switched on, casting a hazy glow over the dishes piled … Continue reading

A (Love) Note From Your Personal Trainer

A (Love) Note From Your Personal Trainer

She walks tentatively into my tiny office, and takes a seat on the swivel chair. Clad in black tights, an oversized black t-shirt, and just-bought-yesterday neon running shoes, she looks nervous. I sit across from her, pen hovering over my official clipboard. I fiddle with the name tag on my nylon Personal Trainer vest. I’m … Continue reading

Is Cheeseburger Soup Enough?

Is Cheeseburger Soup Enough?

I love simple food. I could live off warm toast smothered with creamy butter. Tangy crisp green apples. Field cucumbers sprinkled with salt. Ice cold milk generously poured over crunchy cereal flakes at 11 pm. And cheeseburger soup. Cheeseburger soup is a liquid hug. It’s ground beef and chopped celery, shredded carrots and melt-in-your-mouth potatoes, … Continue reading

Ugly Sweatshirt

Ugly Sweatshirt

Today I am thrilled to be guest posting over at Cara Stickland’s lovely blog, Little Did She Know. Cara has been hosting an utterly captivating series on her site entitled de(tales): stories of all those interesting details that make our life experiences so rich and unique. I hope you enjoy my de(tale) offering, Ugly Sweatshirt. … Continue reading

When Your Body Talks Back

When Your Body Talks Back

You step out of the shower. Take a deep breath as the steam slowly creeps up to the ceiling. Inwardly tell yourself to have grace. To speak words of love. Of affirmation. Anything positive will suffice really. You turn to the mirror. You want so badly to love me. But that brick wall of insecurity … Continue reading

Waiting (Impatiently) for Your Spring

Waiting (Impatiently) for Your Spring

  Spring has an obvious way of making its presence known here on the West Coast. Cherry blossom trees erupt—literally erupt—all over the city. I find cherry blossom trees completely magical—almost otherworldly. The way they unexpectedly burst into a symphony of exquisiteness, seemingly one day to the next. They make plain, ramshackle houses look like … Continue reading

Diffusing The Compliment Grenade

Diffusing The Compliment Grenade

As I strolled up the pebbled walkway a heavy wooden door was thrust open with a vengeance, causing my quiet ponderings to scatter like dandelion seeds. A tiny blur—no higher than my waist—bolted out like a shot. It was my niece Brielle, exhibiting the kind of precocious energy only a four-year-old can muster. She barely … Continue reading

If I Hear You Go Quiet

If I Hear You Go Quiet

When I was a little girl, long black hair swinging in the wind, I accompanied my Opa and Oma to church one Sunday morning. They attended a small Mennonite Brethren church, not unlike the one my family attended at the time, filled with industrious, strong and steady German immigrants. As we shuffled down the aisle, … Continue reading

In Defense Of Nothingness

In Defense Of Nothingness

My house is quiet. Quiet enough that I can hear the hum of the refrigerator and the bubbles furiously fizzing in the drink beside me. The lights are dim. Our little fake Christmas tree is glowing at me. I spent the morning decorating it while my husband and son watched Elf in their cozy jammies (I … Continue reading

Letter to My Magazines: What Women Want

Letter to My Magazines: What Women Want

“We want to feel beautiful in our own skin. Not 20 pounds from now. Right now.” Look, I’ll admit it: we’ve had some good times together. I’ve spent more time with you–unhealthy though it may be–than I care to disclose. I might even have a subscription. I love sinking into a steaming hot tub and … Continue reading